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Disconnected
03:29
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The world was made for us to love each other, don’t you know?
So why is it so hard for us to love another soul?
And every time we try to connect, we only begin to feel…
DISCONNECTED. We feel DISCONNECTED.
Every single word you say is laced or dripping with hate.
I see it in your eyes, the fear. You don’t say a word about it; you must save face.
And every time you try to connect, you only begin to feel…
DISCONNECTED. You feel DISCONNECTED.
They say the change you wanna see in the world starts inside of yourself.
Well, I’ve changed so much that I don’t even recognize myself.
I just wanna go back to the version of me who loved and cherished the world.
Well, I don’t know if he still exists. And if he does, would he even return?
‘Cause every time I try to connect, I only begin to feel…
DISCONNECTED. I feel DISCONNECTED
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Not Exactly
03:39
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You cut me loose. You let me go. Now I’m living on my own in more ways than one.
There was a time I’d be enough for myself, but those days are gone, and I don’t know why.
And I can say without a single shred of doubt what this pain inside of me is all about.
Well, you set me free. But it’s NOT EXACTLY what I wanted to be.
Well, you set me free, but it’s NOT EXACTLY how I’d hoped it would be.
And now all I can see is me.
I opened the door. The light rolled in and knocked me on my ass again, and I...I can’t get up.
Well, if I tried half as hard as I give up, well I’d go far. But I...I can’t make it work.
And I can say without a single shred of doubt what this pain inside of me is all about.
Chorus
Somewhere before the portents, I really should have seen your callous and your selfish underpinnings.
And sometime before we jumped ship, I really should have sensed your disregard for me and how little “us” meant.
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You know you make me fly oh through the skies, oh baby when you smile with those JOSEPH GORDON-LEVITT EYES. Oh!
And you say that you’re sad. That you’re sad to see me go. Well I’ve never been so glad to hear someone say so.
You know you feel so right, didn’t even have to try. You put the sun to shame with those JOSEPH GORDON-LEVITT EYES. Oh!
When you laugh in the wind, well it carries me away. All my past, you rend. I am lifted from disgrace.
Your eyes shine so bright I cannot see. Your eyes, they have conquered me! Oh!
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Charmed
03:41
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Your smile used to make me fly. Feel the world was naught but mine.
That I could lift a mountain and set it down unharmed.
That my entire world was CHARMED. Mmm…
Now when I hear your laughter’s peal, the pain becomes all too real.
You danced with him in the ocean’s cold grasp.
You never did that with me though I had always asked. La da da da da…
You said there’s no love there, and I have to believe that it’s true.
But there’s something you see in him that in me you never do.
And I cannot begin to compete with that.
I guess that I was not meant to…
Your smile used to make me fly. Feel the world was naught but mine.
That I could lift a mountain and set it down unharmed.
That my entire world was CHARMED…
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5. |
On My Wings
04:27
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I don’t know how to get over you. I don’t know how to do what you do to move on as fast as you have.
I can feel the weight of you ON MY WINGS. I can’t take off for anything. I don’t wanna be GROUNDED AGAIN.
And who knows the way to go? I know you don’t, but you seem to get there anyway.
And what the fuck do I do to get over you?
I can hear your voice inside of mind. I smell and taste you all of the time. I can’t take this phantom pain.
I still feel you heavy ON MY WINGS. I’ve got so many other things that should be lifting me to the sky.
And who knows the way to go? I know you don’t, but you seem to get there anyway.
And what the fuck do I do to get over you?
I will tear my wings off, throw them in the dirt. ‘Cause they’ve become a symbol of all my heartache and hurt.
Well, I know you may be hurting just as much as me. And if you are, it’s bottled up for no one to see.
I will claw my way up through the sky. I’m never ever gonna stop trying to make it up to that sun.
I left you there, holding onto my wings. And now I know you’re wondering if I’m gonna be okay.
Well who knows the way to go? I know I don’t, but I’ll find a way there anyway!
And what the fuck do I do to get over you?
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Bandages
04:16
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You walked through the door, BANDAGES white wrapped around your body, matching those on mine. The words we spoke, so soft and smooth. The laughs we shared were fast and loose.
But in the blink of an eye, your BANDAGES fell. If you were there still, well I couldn’t tell.
The silence, it creaked. The absence, it broke. Was all of this just a joke?
My BANDAGES clung without mercy to my wounds, so thirsty for air.
I peeled them off layer by painful layer, hoping and praying that I wasn’t there.
But I am not the invisible man.
I stood in the room, BANDAGES red wrapped around my body by the words you’ve never said. The lies you spoke, so soft and smooth. You had a gift of hiding the truth.
But when the BANDAGES fell, the truth was revealed. In the blink of an eye, my fate was sealed.
By bones, they creaked. My heart, it broke. Was all of this just a joke?
Chorus
With surgical precision, you cut yourself away. But I still feel your breath on my neck every single day. Oh, damn the phantom pain!
Chorus
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7. |
Gay Man of the Year
03:19
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Too many cute guys with nothing to say. Dead in the eyes and sex on the brain.
They’ll say they want love, but they’ll run away. They’ll hold you close, but they never stay.
And therein lies the trouble with love and men.
And that is why I had to begin again.
And I’m staying right here, so that must mean I’m GAY MAN OF THE YEAR. Oh!
There’s always a reason that they’ve gotta go. They’re moving away or I move too slow.
I give everything, but it’s never enough. Or maybe it’s just that it’s not what they want.
And therein lies the trouble with love and men.
And that is why I had to begin again.
Chorus
I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing, but at least I’m man enough to admit it.
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Dragons in My Way
04:02
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I’m standing on a fragile precipice looking off of that cliff at the DRAGONS IN MY WAY.
If I jump right now, I could fly. Or I could burn and die. But I’m jumping either way.
The smoke that darkens up the sky obscures us from their sight, gives us the strength we need to try.
We fly past scales and talons bared. And wings grown rough with wear. And fire behind golden eyes.
Well, the fear it fades when I’m next to you.
The dragons all hidden from view.
I risk it all for something true.
I jump, I jump, I jump for you.
Soaring through the hazy sky, I feel the flames oh so real, but they can never burn us down.
Their necks all crane to reach for us, but their jaws aren’t fast enough to pierce and break our crowns.
The mystery that we both call love is surely dark enough to hide us from their view.
Though their wings beat fast inside the clouds ‘cause they’re desperate to break down the thing that ties me to you.
Chorus
Will our love last forever? No one can know that ever. But to fly and burn is better than a lazy hillside view.
Chorus
‘Cause the fear it fades when you’re next to me. The dragon’s breath has lost its heat. Terror threatens bravery. But I jump, I jump, in spite of me.
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9. |
To Dust
03:04
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I tilled the soil. I watered the ground. I let the sun beat down.
I took great care, and I weeded out anything strange that I found.
Why is it that every time you come to me I’m not enough?
Why is it that every time I harvest my fruit it’s turned TO DUST.
Dust. Everything has turned TO DUST.
I built it up both sure and strong. The hours I put in were long.
A well-oiled machine that moved like a song. Nothing could go wrong.
Why is it that everytime you come to me I’m not enough?
Why is it that everytime I turn it on, it’s gone to rust?
Rust. Everything has gone to rust.
The winds of change blast through the plains stirring up memories. Tearing down both plants and machines. Now there’s a fine film of cancerous dust covering me.
Dust. Everything has turned TO DUST.
Everything has turned TO DUST. Everything crumbles apart.
Dust in my hands. Dust in my lungs. Dust in my veins. Dust in my heart.
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10. |
Eviscerate
03:14
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When the going gets tough, you don’t get going. You just wipe the slate so clean.
Whatever past that you once had gets purged and excised so clear.
You don’t believe in the energy it takes to work through the pain and mistakes.
No, you only EVISCERATE. Oh…
Selfishness and apathy are the keystones to your approach.
There’s no way you’ll welcome someone who’s wronged you. You’re never ever without reproach.
You don’t believe in the patience required to give others chances that you don’t desire.
No, you burn them alive. Oh…
EVISCERATE. Woah… EVISCERATE
No wonder you always had so much time on your hands.
You never give a single person more than a single chance.
And if they should sleight you, if only in your mind, you have no hesitation in leaving them so far behind.
You don’t believe in the energy it takes to work through the pain and mistakes.
No, you only EVISCERATE.
You don’t believe in the patience required to give others chances that you don’t desire.
No, you burn them alive. Oh… EVISCERATE Woah… EVISCERATE
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11. |
Can You Hear Me?
04:00
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You’ve waited for a million lights to light a thousand marquees with your name.
You’ve waited for countless fans to scream and shout your praise, but nothing’s changed.
It’s all the same.
And when you gonna learn that when that psychic shot you down, it didn’t mean a thing?
So why do you want to leave town?
And when you gonna grow your backbone again? I just want you to be happy, but you’ve never been.
CAN YOU HEAR ME?
You’ve waited for a million years, at least that’s how it feels to you today. You’ve waited for that one romance that won’t go up in flames, but you never change. So it’s always the same.
And when you gonna learn that when your heart got broken up, you were always the one to blame.
Is that why you’re leaving us?
And when you gonna face reality again? Do you thrive on being lonely ‘cause it’s all you’ve ever been?
CAN YOU HEAR ME?
Am I talking to a brick wall? Am I singing to no one but the stars? When will you decide, after all, that you’re good enough just the way you are, despite all the scars?
CAN YOU HEAR ME?
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12. |
Tilo
03:44
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Germanic winds are rushing through my hair, and the sun shines down on us like a spotlight.
It illuminates what we cannot ignore: that moment when we will soon have to say goodbye.
And I hate to admit that the words that I should say, I usually never say with sound.
But this time as you leave, I won’t stay silent anymore. I’ll open up and say it all out loud.
Oh, TILO, why do you have to go? Deutschland calls you home, so I’ll stay here alone. Oh, why do you have to go?
Die Küsse that we shared, wundertätig. You looked at me like I was ein Gott. Warum musst du gehen. I just want you to stay and wash over me like a schöner Fluss.
And I hate to admit that the words that I should say, I usually never say with sound.
But this time as you leave, I won’t stay silent anymore. I’ll open up and say it all out loud.
Mein TILO, why do you have to go? Deutschland calls you home, so I’ll stay here alone. Oh, why do you have to go?
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13. |
Roxanne's Waltz
05:19
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Here I sit, staring into outer space feeling like I am a failure. I guess that means that it is a Monday. Although it could be any other day, for that matter. Oh…
What have I done with my life? Wrote a few songs rife with cliches. That’s better than average but still not good enough for the Book of Days.
All I wanted to do was to leave a mark on the universe, but all I’ve got are these bright red scars. Oh!
I would like to wake up someday feeling like...feeling like I weigh absolutely nothing.
Here you sit, staring into outer space. I promise that you’re not a failure. I know that you may find it hard to believe, but every single thing you’ve ever done has always mattered. Oh!
What have you done with your life? Well, you followed your dreams to the dark. And that’s better than average ‘cause most of us never get that far. All you wanted to do was to leave a mark. Well, you left an indelible one right here...right here on my heart. Oh!
I hope you wake up someday feeling like you’re no longer under the weight of absolutely nothing.
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14. |
I'm Happy
03:19
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Nuclear winter is on its way. The missiles launched have cracked the sky, and the earth is grey. With tears in eyes, you beg and plead for forgiveness from me. But there’s no need. I’ve long forgot your sins against me.
The sun burns cold. We’re all ashes, no bones. And the last thought that I think is…
I’M HAPPY. No, really, I am. The fear that’s ruled my life will soon be vaporized. I’M HAPPY. I swear that I am. The pain that has defined me will soon be behind me. I’M HAPPY. Oh...I’M HAPPY.
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